For nearly six weeks now I’ve found myself stuck in a rut. And true to what I’ve come to expect, my reaction has been to repeatedly slam the pedal to floor, rev the engine, spin the wheels frantically — but only making matters worse in the end. I’m stubborn.
Sure, my IT-band injury has certainly set back my running plans, but I’ve heavily compensated with an onslaught of stretching, strengthening, skiing, cycling, and the otherwise constant pursuit to fill the gap left by running with as much activity as possible. While I’ve retained some fitness, I’ve also subjected my body to all sorts of new stress — stress that has accumulated and spilled over into other parts of my life. It’s left me with a deep cold I’ve carried for several weeks. It’s influenced my mood — I’ve been unfairly short with friends, co-workers and family. And I’ve been unusually tired and fatigued today, which seems to contradict the fact that I’ve run far fewer miles of late.
Yesterday I escaped the office to the Steaming Bean to add an overdue entry to my journal, and I think this brief moment of reflection — the first in a while — finally shed some new light on my situation. Slow down, weasel… it’s only February.
Indeed, the long, dark winter has worn me down, and I’ll attribute additional anxiety to the holding pattern I’m in (I’m still living out of a suitcase having yet to find a more permanent housing arrangement). I think I’ve seized one too many days in a row, relentlessly waking each morning by 5am to crank out a few hours of exercise.
So last night I vowed to take a new approach, and it began by disabling my alarm clock and crawling into bed at 8:30pm. It continued this morning when I awoke, made stovetop oatmeal and a hot cup of coffee, and sat down at the table to write this post before jumping into anything physical.
Rest. So many of us think we can do without it, but at the end of the day, instinct defeats will. Today I will not work out. I will instead focus on work, relationships, and the laundry list of other things I’ve been neglecting — and I will take solace in knowing that, as far as 2012 is concerned, the best is so yet to come.